Stuttering

         From the beginning of my life until this present day, I’ve confronted to a phenomenal issue. It is the most annoying disease that I've ever faced since I was born. It has been my greatest challenge. It blocks my way of talking and gives me trouble communicating. Sometimes I feel like my life could have been better if I was not in this situation.

 

        When I was in middle school, I was so timid, not because I wanted to be but because of the stutter. Every time I opened my mouth to express myself, the words couldn’t come out. Sometimes I got nervous and stopped talking for the rest of the day. Usually I just stayed quiet for my defense because my friends were making fun of me. Back in the day, I felt it was a huge burden in my life. I had to try over and over until the words finally decided to come out of my mouth. I used to cry because of it. Sometimes I had something important to say and I felt like the stuttering was holding me back and I became so scared to talk. I remember this day in high school, the teacher asked me to do a presentation. I stood up to start presenting what I had to do. As soon as I got up to say my first words, everybody started to make fun of me and laugh. I sometimes asked myself why God made me like this and not someone else. And then I felt apart and didn't want to participate in anything, I was only an observer.

 

       It took me until the end of my senior year to realize this is the way I am. Probably this is the way I’m going to be for the rest of my life. Then I met a professor back in my college in Haiti who gave me some tips to get over it, such as to read aloud and to be confident in myself. He told me sometimes I stutter more because of lack of confidence and the most important thing is to be patient with myself. He was really patient with me and encouraged me to go forward with my life.

 

          I’m not saying that I don’t stutter anymore but it doesn’t really matter for me anymore. I don’t let this issue dictate my life anymore. It might take time for the words to come out or to make a point but I believe in myself and am very patient. I realize that God has created me this way for a purpose and no matter what, I have to be happy for this existence he gave me. Besides this issue, he gave me so many opportunities such as intelligence, understanding and self-confidence. Since I’ve identified my problem and let it go, I’ve became a better person. I’ve   become a positive person and I realize that every day in life is a blessing from God and I have to enjoy it completely.